Childhood Remembered!!

Me and thr girls were all sitting down talkng about the future and what it holds but somehow we started to discusss our pasts; our faovirte shows and toys.Its funny how in 2009 the children change their favorite shows and toys all the time {High School Musical,Hannah Montana,Jonas Brothers & etc}and it makes some people finaically insecure becuase they are trying to make their child happy.When I was a child we didn't have to do all that.Our parents put us in their room, the play room or even sometimes in our room to enjoy ourselves.

Here are just some of the shows that I learned that I miss alot & cant wait to youtube them to watch the best of the best episodes unless i can find the seasons on dvd's

- Recess
- Fillmore
- Harriet the spy
- Magic school bus
- Peper Ann
- Power Rangers
- Rugrats
- Brunos world
- Where in the world is Carmen San Diego
- Bobbys World
- Dexters labortary
- Hey Arnold

- Celebrity Deathmatch

There is also a Toy list because who didn't have a fun time with all their toys. I wish I cpuld have saved some of these because I surely want my children to play with these becasue the new toys are so simple and cost so much and can only keep a child entertained for about two minutes.

- American doll
- Furby
- Beanie babies
- Cabbage patch kids
- Pokemon
- Giga/Nano pets
- Easy bake oven
- Gameboys
- Legos
- Pooch
- Magic bottle baby
-Polly pocket
-Sega genisis [game sytem]

- Barbie & Ken

The Rap Up

So school is almost out and this year has yet been another learning experience and that’s what life is: Lessons! There are things that I didn’t want or expect to happen but that’s life and that’s why everyday is a path yet traveled [so leave the regrets at the door and move on]. Throughout this year I have gained several wonderful friends and even people that I see myself talking to years after college but then there are people that I feel off with because of certain situations and again that’s all about learning about life and how people work. At the end of the day I came to school to get an education [which Hampton is low key slumming on lol] and that’s what I got this year. All the drama and issues are just obstacles that I had to face but at the end of the day the petty fights and the senseless drama is all over with because believe you me next month I wont remember about it and I’m not going to let myself loose sleep over it! But for now I’m waiting until the next journey and hope it brings many smiles and memories [more positive than negative]!!

Controlling My Fall

So im confessing that I am falling for someone but honestly I don't want to. I have been hurt in the past so I'm not open to being hurt again. So how do I protect myself in this situation? Of course he says he wont hurt me and of course I want to believe him but why....at then end of the day hes just like everyone else and I know I will be hurt [maybe not right now but somewhere down the line]. Should I just continue to fall and wait on the heartache or put a wall up and hope that he decides to break it down and not walk away from it?

So until I have an answer that I am happy with I'm going to see if I can control my emotions and just go with the flow............

Pursuit of Happiness

I love my girls with all of my heart and I love all the memories we share and the conversations we have and because we are getting older certain things are always brought up. The conversations seem to be getting old but we are at an age where friendships and relationships are a point of survival and without them we aren’t exactly complete.
One day while I’m talking to one of my friends I can’t wait until she says “sis, bestii, morgy….I’m happy & his name is_____”. You don’t know how many times a day I pray for that and one day I know my prayers will be answered on that!

I can’t wait to add one of my girls or even myself to this list!!

Blessed & Highly Favored

I’m usually talking about the negative things in my life and trying to figure out how to make them positive but why not take time out to thank God for all the positive things that are already in my life:

•I have the best family a girl could ask for….they bend over backwards to make me happy!!
•I have the greatest bestfirends ever…..whenever I need them they are always there
•My brothers and sisters are the best “fake” siblings in the world….the only thing that would make us closer is blood and who cares about that lol
•I’m in college [although I’m over it; my parents sent me]
•I have my own car
•I have two places I can call home!

The list can go on and on but I dont feel like sounding a spoiled kid like Tamara said we are not spoiled we are blessed & because of that I thank God for everything he has done!!

Special Shoutouts to: My Mommy & Daddy, Chris, Aunt Bonita, Aunt Pam, Aunt Dawn,Aunt Sybil, Aunt Wendy, Aunt Star, Lauren, Shawn, Noah, Nikki, B, Tamara, Tara, Smiley, Tuere, Yaso, Matt, Charles, Deron, Ceo Ced, Clarence, RJ, Mark, Davon, Carson, Bryant,Tierra, Precious, Jewel, Jaz, Alia, Aaliyah, Tori, Bre, Kayla, Tierra, Christen, Shardel
[I missed several people but know that I love you all!]

This is 4 the Girl who gets Tipsy but Never Gets to Drunk

So this weekend has been one of the best weekends in a long time!

It started off with Sophmore/Junior Cab! We already knew that it was going to be on point because of all the people who were going but when we arrived we def stamped one of the best parties at HU this year! I personally didnt dance that much but I still had a great time....I was more of the photographer and the seeker outer [inside w/my girls]. So all in all it was very successful excpet for the big brawl that broke out 10 minutes before we left but I go to a nigger school and thats what niggers do unfortunately smh!
Then I get home and Tamara and I have to drive around the world-mind you we were already in traffic 80%of the day.Anyway we went to go get Kalan [low key I missed him so I was exitied to see him]then off to chiptole for dinner! Then the night started Kalan bought bacardi limon to start us off.I honestly didnt want to drink but we drove all this way & paid for a room so I had too. The 1st shot was ridiculous and my mouth and hands went numb.After that I was good too go, about 3 1/2 shots later I was done! I couldnt walk, got extremley hot & etc. I passed out a couple hours after and Tamara passed out by the toilet lol. [Good news none of us threw up...that was my biggest fear].
Im still @ home so this will be updated Sunday night....TILL then yall

Halle Berry..........enough said!

So I love this video so I had to share it with yall!
Enjoy

If I Could Turn Back the Hands of Time

* Realize that The Best [you] Ever Had maybe Irreplaceable

Im getting ready to finish my second year at Hampton University and when I look at my girls and even my male friends I think its pretty ridiculous how no one is in a relationship [or classified as an item]. The are people who want a relationship and would do anything to get it….those people will wait forever to be in one and if they are committed to someone I’m sure it’s a stressful situation [my past experience]. Then they are people who have been talking to each other since they have been here but one of the people is still scared to commit. If you don’t want to commit to anyone then please be clear [you may not like the truth but the truth is always understandable].
And [ladies & gentlemen] if you decide to pull the other person along and not commit then please don’t be astonished if they meet someone else who may take your spot. I have seen that many people don’t commit until they see that the other has found someone. [I was watching a show with the girls and this woman said that men move faster when they fear that another man is in the picture and same as for women].

My question is why does it take another person to come in the picture in order for you to realize what I’m worth? Why do we have to fight in order for me to show my love and loyalty to you….is it worth all that? I honestly believe that all this can be avoided if both parties communicate with each other. If I know that my time is not being wasted with you then I will stick by your side. Most people are not asking for commitment but are asking for a valid reason on why it hasn’t happened.

* Please note that when I’m gone that means I’m gone. I hate when people realize that the person they lost was the one for them and now they try to get them back. I told you in the beginning that I was irreplaceable and the best you ever had but why did it take you so long. You cant turn back the hands of time so make the present perfect so the future is successful!

To Love & Be Loved

Do you love yourself? And how much?

Everyday in normal conversation you hear the word love come up [if your telling your family, friends or a significant other] but one of the most important people isn’t on that list….yourself! How many times a day do you tell yourself that you love you? Do you think it would be crazy to say that; I used to think that was ridiculous but as I grew up I realized at the end of the day if I don’t say it then who will.
As much as your parents love you or even your friends no one can love you like you can. At the end of the day like Beyonce said its “Me, Myself & I that’s all I got in the end”. I learned that I couldn’t properly love others because I didn’t know how to love myself, it took several people and incidents that made me question this and ever since I pondered on the question I have learned how to love myself and how to love others.
Take time out of your day to pray to God and also remind yourself that in the end all you have is yourself, so learn to love and to be loved!!

A Reflection of Love

(an old poem I wanted to share w/you all.....I was deeply hut by someone I never thought would hurt me but life goes on)

I Hate What You Did to Me…

I hate that you did everything in your will to hurt me
I hate that you took my heart and ran with it
I hate that thru it all you never cared
I hate that you didn’t give a damn about me or how I felt
I hate that you were never there when I cried
I hate that you lied
I hate that you cheated
I hate that you played games with me
I hate that I found out the way I did
I hate that I had to play investigator instead of your girlfriend

I hate that you were different around your friends
I hate that you made me different around my friends
I hate that you changed and made me stay the same

I hate that everyone else was right but me
I hate that people could see it, but I was blind
I hate that you made me blind to everything and everyone

I hate that you were immature
I hate that I was too mature for you
I hate that I had to play mom all the time

I hate that I had to do the things that you should have done
I hate that I’m a different person because of you

I hate that I don’t fully understand how to love myself because I loved you too much

I hate that I can never stand when your name is spoken
I hate that I judge every boy that comes my way because of what you did
I hate that you made me second guess myself
I hate that you tried to make me weak
I hate that I thought about you when you never gave a damn
I hate that you were apart of my life
I hate that I can’t ever be the same
I hate that I’m not me [all because of you]!

You will never understand what you have done and you probably don’t care but I pray every night that I never have to be put in this situation ever again. You hurt me so bad; I never thought it was possible. You honestly don’t give a damn! In the end I have to thank you for hurting me and letting me get to the lowest point in my life because if I didn’t reach that point then I wouldn’t be where I am now. I am a beautiful, educated African American young lady who has realized that you have to learn from your mistakes in order to grow. Because of you I have a better appreciation for myself and those who have been treated the same. I will always remember the hateful things you have done but most importantly I will remember how to live without you. I will remember who I am and I how I made it!!!

- older& wiser
December 16, 2007

Welcome

Hey to all the bloggers!!
I never thought I would be the one to get a blog but I hear its the new thing that everyone is doing so I gave in and now I am a blogger!!

The stuff I write on here is for anyone to see and I would love to hear your comments [positive or negative] on the things that I post.